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[digested @ nettime -- mod (tb)] Alan Sondheim <sondheim@panix.com> From the East of Odyssey Performance: Text, Video, Stills 8.14.10 maxims, laws of form The Sparse Dance at Humlab Whose Bodies The Roma: Europe's favorite Scapegoat three more from the concentration camp cafe concentration-camp cafe humans protecting us STOP FORCED EVICTIONS OF ROMA IN EUROPE! (fwd) Social Media Poetics: Why Talk, Sondheim Sondheim Thinking About Retiring - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Date: Sun, 15 Aug 2010 11:34:35 -0400 (EDT) From: Alan Sondheim <sondheim@panix.com> Subject: From the East of Odyssey Performance: Text, Video, Stills 8.14.10 >From the East of Odyssey Performance: Text, Video, Stills 8.14.10 (apologies for cross-posting and file sizes, odyperform up for a short time only, because of space constraints) http://www.alansondheim.org/odyperform.mp4 - very large file, gives a good idea of the organization of 'chaotic/fluid' architecture/organism. Text organized by Sandy Baldwin, performance by Alan Sondheim/Sandy Baldwin http://www.alansondheim.org/odyre1.mov - short section from rehearsal showing two computers interacting; I ran two avatars together, so that performance could alternate with script/object/animation changes etc. http://www.alansondheim.org/jt.bmp - Julu Twine towards end http://www.alansondheim.org/ad.bmp - removing objects at the end - some East Odyssey Performance Chat Dialog [2010/08/14 14:25] Flight Band: All Go [2010/08/14 14:25] sandy Taifun: We swallowed each other, mouth against organ, juices bubbling over the tongue, wet eyes, wet hair, mouthing HONEY, you'd say, m [2010/08/14 14:25] sandy Taifun: Hey! [2010/08/14 14:25] sandy Taifun: I'd press myself up against the TERMINAL screen TERMINAL desire, my nipple against the O mouthing itself, taking death away, he [2010/08/14 14:25] sandy Taifun: Our membranes devoured the glass, enchanted residue remaining on-line off-line for days. [2010/08/14 14:25] sandy Taifun: My mouth and HONEY's cunt: A double hollow! My cock and HONEY's fist: Lozenge! My body would break on itself, a limited defile! [2010/08/14 14:25] sandy Taifun: I enter your nave! Your feet skid down parallel wires; sliding into my testicles, ASCII spurts from your urethra, ASCII spurts [2010/08/14 14:25] sandy Taifun: would you like to bear my child [2010/08/14 14:25] sandy Taifun: or become my child processes [2010/08/14 14:26] sandy Taifun: use me! [2010/08/14 14:26] sandy Taifun: ???The sun deluges its chemical holocaust to the earth with blinding indifference" [2010/08/14 14:26] sandy Taifun: would i murmur and caress you [2010/08/14 14:27] sandy Taifun: would you be my parent process [2010/08/14 14:27] sandy Taifun: ???erection... around my balls... yes... across the screens... yes...??? [2010-08-14 14:41] sandy Taifun: alan, i im'd fau ferdinand about connectivity problem and asked him/it to pass on to lizsolo [2010-08-14 14:45] Alan Dojoji: it's all screwed up at this end - [2010-08-14 14:45] Alan Dojoji: I can't use the main machine with the wireless keyboard! [2010-08-14 14:45] sandy Taifun: ok, well, there's a little time. do you want me to connect as you? [2010-08-14 14:45] Alan Dojoji: It's a complex avatar. [2010-08-14 14:46] Alan Dojoji: Try and fly it then drop it into the mix [2010-08-14 14:46] sandy Taifun: ok, ill do what i can it'll take a few minutes to connect [2010-08-14 14:46] Alan Dojoji: use animation - there's one called allover that I've been working with [2010-08-14 14:46] sandy Taifun: ok, so sytart allover in the middle of this mess? [2010-08-14 14:47] sandy Taifun: allover animation [2010/08/14 14:59] sandy Taifun: u ok? [2010/08/14 15:00] Julu Twine: yes running [2010/08/14 15:00] sandy Taifun: ok [2010/08/14 15:04] Julu Twine: WORDS ARE A MISERY [2010/08/14 15:16] sandy Taifun: i've no idea what's happening [2010/08/14 15:23] sandy Taifun: plz teleport [2010/08/14 15:26] Julu Twine: ARE YOU IN [2010/08/14 15:26] sandy Taifun: yes [2010/08/14 15:26] sandy Taifun: still no sure hat's appening [2010/08/14 15:26] sandy Taifun: alright onyr end?? [2010/08/14 15:27] Julu Twine: ALL RIGHT HERE - KEEP THE CHAT GOING - [2010/08/14 15:31] Julu Twine: LET'S GO IN A MINUTE OR TWO\ [2010/08/14 15:31] sandy Taifun: leave? ok [2010/08/14 15:31] Julu Twine: YES WE JUST BOW OUT - RIGHT NOW MAYBE? - DO YOU THINK THIS IS LONG ENOUGH? [2010/08/14 15:32] sandy Taifun: i suppose, it's so thick and clotty and dense i can't realy tell what's happening, but tat's ok [2010/08/14 15:32] sandy Taifun: sure leave anytime? now??? [2010/08/14 15:33] Julu Twine: MAYBE ANOTHER MINUTE - TRY WITH MEDIA ON , PRETTY INTERESTING [2010/08/14 15:33] sandy Taifun: ok just tell me when [2010/08/14 15:34] Julu Twine: CAN YOU PUT UP A HUGE AMOUNT OF SCRIPT? [2010/08/14 15:34] sandy Taifun: ok [2010/08/14 15:35] Julu Twine: EXCELLENT! [2010/08/14 15:35] sandy Taifun: !!!! [2010/08/14 15:35] Julu Twine: OK LET'S LEAVE IN FIFTEEN SECONDS [2010/08/14 15:35] sandy Taifun: good [15:36] sandy Taifun: definatly sharks and clowns.........what o.o. most happy when .... Oh please God , have mercy! Oh please let it end! And he [15:36] sandy Taifun: Hey! [15:36] sandy Taifun: I wish I was home making new avatars on my computer to fuck with. [15:36] sandy Taifun: The avatar has to avoid the swords. The swords make the avatar angry. [15:36] sandy Taifun: avatar-meat from body motion-capture to digital representation to uncaptured body body remembering origins / scars < digital [15:36] sandy Taifun: ancer ancer ancer/avatar ancer/ancer ancer/igital ancer igital ancer. [15:36] sandy Taifun: ancer{}igital{{}}avatar{}analog. igital{{}}avatar{}analog. [15:36] sandy Taifun: every avatar is deconstructible [15:36] sandy Taifun: every avatar has a level of deconstruction [15:36] sandy Taifun: engineering and reverse engineering an avatar [15:36] sandy Taifun: Get lost! [15:36] sandy Taifun: i prefer the small, seeping, the peripeheral, marginal, the scattered words [15:36] sandy Taifun: what would break down here, a language that you use against me? so that I will absjure, abjure these ... moments ... ? [15:36] sandy Taifun: as sites, domains, emanations, emissions, which are interwoven and sharing coagulated ego/s, matrices, languages, bodies. [15:36] sandy Taifun: i prefer the small, seeping, the peripeheral, marginal, the scattered words, drops say from a drizzle [15:36] sandy Taifun: everything is a moment moment for you, everything this mmmm... of matrix, mother, maternal, carrying forth [15:36] sandy Taifun: which announces itself as the edge or frame of this dialog, these moments carried forth... [15:36] sandy Taifun: times which smooth us, bits and bytes, protocls lost and smoothing functions traced across peripheries, margins [2010-08-14 15:42] Howl Yifu: plz teleport - sandy [2010-08-14 15:45] Howl Yifu is Offline [2010-08-14 15:45] Howl Yifu is Online [2010-08-14 15:50] Howl Yifu: garret lynch = v. interesting work [2010-08-14 15:50] Howl Yifu: shd we continue or exit? [2010-08-14 15:51] Alan Dojoji: definitely - we might do some thigs together - we've been talking about it - I think exit? do you have the text? I don't at this end - [2010-08-14 15:51] Howl Yifu: that's what i need to look for - not sure twas so chaotic [2010-08-14 15:51] Howl Yifu: give me a few minutes [2010-08-14 15:51] Alan Dojoji: ok, can I call yoou later? [2010-08-14 15:51] Howl Yifu: yes. i'll look for text and then make dinner [2010-08-14 15:52] Alan Dojoji: ok, take care - [2010-08-14 15:52] Howl Yifu: you 2 [2010-08-14 15:52] Howl Yifu is Offline - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Date: Tue, 17 Aug 2010 11:34:54 -0400 (EDT) From: Alan Sondheim <sondheim@panix.com> Subject: maxims, laws of form maxims, laws of form you can't draw a distinction without the meat if a distinction is equivalent, it's a fissure if a distinction is different, it's a negation relative to the meat once crossed, a negation is done from negation emerges the other negation is on the way to inscribing the other and the meat of the other from a fissure emerges the slow creep of the other from the slow creep of the other emerges the matrix of the fissure the matrix of the fissure is unstable different distinction is stable to the extent that negation is stable negation of negation is somewhat of something else a fissure is abjection in meat, is meat-abjection different distinction renders meat-abjection taut taut abjection is at the breaking-point of slough substrate shines among broken meat crossing a fissure makes no difference the non-difference of fissure is the foundation of culture the fissure, meat-abjection, is always imaginary the imaginary of the fissure is uncountable, unaccounted-for the imaginary of different distinction is surreal number among numbers are numbers, among the fissure is defuge fissures are reducible and irreducible different distinctions reside on the plateau of mathesis mathesis is extruded from the plateau of different distinctions schemata are imaginary and unaccountable schemata are meat-fissures dear monster, there is nothing left of me everything has fallen through and i cannot die for hir s/he will be bereft and that is the worst of the token s/he says the laws of form are the out-laws of form s/he says the out-laws of form are meat-forms and 'no matter what' s/he says ontology is a muscle memory hir rightness is monstrous and true as meat is true the truth of meat is the cleft and fissure of meat (s/he says) i will never get back to you on this (there is nothing to get back to) (it is impossible to return) - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Date: Fri, 20 Aug 2010 01:57:12 -0400 (EDT) From: Alan Sondheim <sondheim@panix.com> Subject: The Sparse Dance at Humlab The Sparse Dance at Humlab Avatar Julu Dojoji performing Sparse Dance at Humlab. Of all the avatar dance videos I've done in SL, this seems to me (at the moment) to be the most interesting - certainly the dance makes sense. Some of the materials are worn by Dojoji, some are activated by hir; the movement is fluid, camera work extraordinary thanks to the Snowglobe 2 Viewer. I wish to thank my entire production staff for this. If you have ONE avatar Dojoji film to see this year, THIS IS IT! http://www.alansondheim.org/sparse.mp4 Seriously, it's beautiful and close to the kind of hypostatization I've wanted to work towards, in terms of solo performance/choreography. Not to mention the sound finally comes together. The beginning and end of the piece demonstrates the construction and deconstruction. - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Date: Sun, 22 Aug 2010 23:08:55 -0400 (EDT) From: Alan Sondheim <sondheim@panix.com> Subject: Whose Bodies Whose Bodies http://www.alansondheim.org/whosebodies.mp4 I can't stand this piece, non-white bodies, like Auschwitz smoke of a future Amerika where "anchor babies" become synonyms for things, Mosques are carousels of debris, white Amerika cleanses and scours the newer more natural you. The virtual world is a perfect harbor for white fears, human smoke, violence changing the (apparently Jewish and liberal) fabric of space and time itself. What happens in Amerika doesn't stay in Amerika; it spreads like cancer, like there's no tomorrow and there might not be. I'm sick of humans, sick of slaughter, hatred, hunting; I'm sick of death and destruction, sick of fundamentalisms, sick of ignorance and rumor. Welcome to Kristallnachtundtag, worlds of pain and analysis, annihilation to the limit. And all I can do is make stupid videos I can't stand. - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Date: Tue, 24 Aug 2010 22:05:01 -0400 (EDT) From: Alan Sondheim <sondheim@panix.com> Subject: The Roma: Europe's favorite Scapegoat Sickening and all too familiar - ---------- Forwarded message ---------- date: Tue, 24 Aug 2010 21:25:55 from: moderator@PORTSIDE.ORG to: PORTSIDE@LISTS.PORTSIDE.ORG subject: The Roma: Europe's favorite Scapegoat The Roma: Europe's favorite Scapegoat Dispatches From The Edge Conn Hallinan submitted to Portside by the author August 23, 2010 [Note: A version of this article appeared in The Berkeley Daily Planet (The East Bay's Independent Newspaper) http://berkeleydailyplanet.com/issue/2010-08-24/article/ 36127?headline=Dispatches-From-The-Edge-Roma-Europe-s- Favorite-Scapegoat- ] Peggy Hollinger and Chris Bryant of the Financial Times put their fingers on what's behind the current uproar over Europe's Roma population: the group is "an easy target for politicians seeking to distract attention from problems at home by playing on fears over security." That strategy was stage center in early August when France's conservative government shipped several hundred Roma back to Romania and French President Nicolas Sarkozy pledged he would bulldoze 300 Roma camps over the next several weeks. Europe is certainly in need of distraction these days. Sarkozy's poll numbers are dismal and his administration is plagued by scandals. The economic crisis has seen France's debt soar, and European governments have instituted savage austerity programs that are filling the jobless rolls from Dublin to Athens. Since most politicians would rather not examine the cause of the economic crisis roiling the continent - many were complicit in dismantling the checks and balances that eventually led to the current recession - "criminal gypsies" come in very handy. France's crackdown was sparked by an angry demonstration in Saint-Aignan following the death of a young "traveler" at the hands of police. Sarkozy never saw a riot he couldn't turn to his advantage. On July 29 his office declared it would dismantle Roma camps because they are "sources of illegal trafficking, profoundly shocking living standards, exploitation of children for begging, prostitution and crime." Living conditions in Roma camps are, indeed, sub- standard, but in large part because local French authorities refuse to follow a law requiring that towns with a population of over 5,000 establish electrical and water hookups for such camps. And because countries like Germany, France, Italy and Britain refuse to use any of the $22 billion that the European Commission has made available for alleviating the conditions that the Roma and other minorities exist under. As for the "crime" and "drug trafficking" charge, research by the European Union (EU) suggests there is no difference between crime rates among the Roma than in "the population at large." "Indeed there are Roma who are in charge of trafficking networks, but they represent less than one percent of this population, the rest are victims," David Mark, head of the Civic Alliance of Roma in Romania, a coalition of over 20 Roma non-governmental organizations, told IPS News. Mark went on to point out that "Because that one percent commits crimes and the authorities are not able to stop them, all Roma are being criminalized." The expulsions and demolitions, he charged, are "based on criminalization of an entire ethnic group, when criminality should be judged on a case by case basis in courts of law." In some cases the level of hysteria would be almost laughable were it not resulting in the most wide spread roundup of an ethnic minority since World War II. Italy declared a "Gypsy emergency," in spite of the fact that Italy, which has a population of 57.6 million people, has only 60,000 non-Italian Roma. Estimates are that there are between 10 and 12 million Roma in Europe, making the group the continent's largest minority. For several weeks, the EU's executive body, the European Commission, played hot potato with the issue. The EC insisted that it was doing everything it could to help the Roma and pointed to the $22 billion pot that remains pretty much untapped. But it also kept silent on charges by human rights organizations that countries like Germany, Italy and France were violating EU law guaranteeing freedom of movement. These nations - primarily France - argue that since the Roma are from Romania and Bulgaria, and both countries are newly minted EU members, the freedom of movement clause doesn't kick in until 2014. And, in any case, French officials charge that the Roma can't show they are gainfully employed and self-supporting. On this latter point, rights organizations point out that Roma are discriminated against in employment. "It's somewhat hypocritical to complain about people not having money to subsist in France when you don't offer access to the labor market at the same time," says Bob Kushen, managing director of the European Roma Rights Center in Budapest. With the exception of Spain and Finland, most EU members have the same restrictions on staying in a country more than three months without a regular job. France is certainly not alone in singling out the Roma. Germany is preparing to deport 12,000 to Kosovo, a destination that may well put the deportees in danger, because Kosovo Albanians accuse the Roma of siding with the Serbs during the 1999 Yugoslav War. From the Roma's point of view Serbia had long guaranteed their communities a certain level of employment and educational opportunities, while the Albanians had always repressed them. Other countries singling out the Roma include Britain, Sweden, Denmark and Belgium. The Swedes deported some 50 Roma for "begging," even though begging is not a crime in Sweden. But France has instituted the most aggressive anti-Roma campaign, which also includes its own "gens du voyage," all of whom are French citizens and theoretically guaranteed encampment facilities. France is estimated to have between 300,000 and 500,000 of these "travelers." The French campaign, however, has sparked a backlash. Romania's Foreign Minister, Teodor Basconschi, blasted France for "criminalizing ethnic groups" and warned of "the risks of populist provocation and creating xenophobic reactions at a time of economic crisis." Basconschi called for a joint Romanian-French approach "devoid of artificial election fever." The Vatican's secretary of the Pastoral Care of Migrants and Itinerant People Commission said, "The mass expulsion of Roma are against European norms." The growing chorus of protest by human rights groups, the United Nations, the Vatican, and Romania finally moved the EU to inject itself into the controversy. "Recent developments in several European countries, most recently eviction of Roma camps in France and expulsions of Roma from France and Germany, are certainly not the right measures to improve the situation of this vulnerable minority. On the contrary, they are likely to lead to an increase in racist and xenophobic feelings in Europe," said Meviut Cavusogiu, president of the Parliamentary Assembly of the Council of Europe. Cavusogiu cited Protocol No. 4 of the European Convention of Human Rights that prohibits "the collective expulsions of aliens," as well as the right to freedom of movement for all EU citizens. However, France was sticking by its guns, claiming that it was not "deporting" anyone: the Roma were leaving voluntarily for a nominal payment of $386 for adults, and $129 for children. But some members of Sarkozy's party, the Union for a Popular Movement, were using the word "deport," and even the more explosive term "rafles." That was the term used to describe the rounding up of French Jews during WW II, most of whom died in the death camps. Roma suffered a similar fate at the hands of the Nazis. It is estimated that between 200,000 and 1.5 million Roma perished in the concentration camps. Scapegoating the Roma is an old European tradition, almost as old as the initial migration of the Romany people out of Rajasthan, India in the 11th century. Most of those Roma settled in Moldavia and Wallachia - today's Romania - where they were quickly enslaved. Those Romany who did not escape enslavement by to taking up the nomadic life remained slaves until 1856. According to Maria Ochoa-Lido of the Council of Europe, those centuries of slavery essentially sentenced the Roma to poverty-stricken lives on the margins, with life expectancy considerably lower than other populations in the EU. A lack of access to education, social services, education and the legal system for Romania's 2.5 million Roma still drives many of them to take to the road. As bad as conditions for the Roma are in countries like France and Germany, they are better than those in poverty-stricken Romania. The attacks on the Roma could well be a prelude to similar campaigns against other European minorities: Turks in Germany, Pakistanis in England, Moroccans and Algerians in Spain and Italy, and Africans scattered throughout the continent. Xenophobia in a time of economic crisis rarely restricts itself to a single target. [Conn Hallinan is currently a columnist for Foreign Policy In Focus (FPIF.com), a "think tank without walls." FPIF is associated with the Institute for Policy Study and draws together more than 600 foreign policy analysts from around the world to examine U.S. foreign policy. Hallinan is also a columnist for the Berkeley Daily Planet, and an occasional free lance medical policy writer. He is a recipient of a Project Censored "Real News Award." He formally ran the journalism program at the University of California at Santa Cruz, where he was also a college provost. He holds a PhD in Anthropology from the University of California at Berkeley, and lives in Berkeley, California.] _____________________________________________ Portside aims to provide material of interest to people on the left that will help them to interpret the world and to change it. Submit via email: moderator@portside.org Submit via the Web: portside.org/submit Frequently asked questions: portside.org/faq Subscribe: portside.org/subscribe Unsubscribe: portside.org/unsubscribe Account assistance: portside.org/contact Search the archives: portside.org/archive - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Date: Wed, 25 Aug 2010 00:04:33 -0400 (EDT) From: Alan Sondheim <sondheim@panix.com> Subject: three more from the concentration camp cafe three more from the concentration camp cafe they are building the arena next to our building. eminent domain - misused - resulted in a lot of evictions. the neighborhood was declared blighted. we fought this stuff off for four years and lost, no surprise. they're tearing up our street now and our building is shaking. no surprise at that either. i think we're going to have to move as the building falls apart. thank god i'm white and wealthy and live in white america. gotta learn to play, just in case the orkestra needs me. let's beat up some jews and kick them out for being beaten. tie anchor babies to the boats, nothing cleans like disappearance. me i'm gonna suck up jesus christ any way i can. he wants a blow job i'll give him a blow job. i think my muslim friends better do the same. gays, stay away from jesus christ, the blow jobs are for straights. thank god i'm white and wealthy and live in white america. gotta learn to play, just in case the orkestra needs me. three more from the concentration camp cafe: http://espdisk.com/alansondheim/atonalmatrix.mp3 http://espdisk.com/alansondheim/doomed1.mp3 http://espdisk.com/alansondheim/doomed2.mp3 - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Date: Tue, 24 Aug 2010 00:39:57 -0400 (EDT) From: Alan Sondheim <sondheim@panix.com> Subject: concentration-camp cafe concentration-camp cafe the jews have to play to stay alive moslem-islam-yid music everyone's dancing world war two plus 65 and look who's counting someone's gone by the end of the day burn the constitution and kneel down to pray the poor orkestra tries again and again fights break out between shtetls and atonals drown out bayonetted anchor-baby screams drop dead, go on and on, drop dead someone's dead by the end of the day burn the constitution and kneel down to pray http://espdisk.com/alansondheim/cafe1.mp3 http://espdisk.com/alansondheim/cafe2.mp3 - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Date: Wed, 25 Aug 2010 13:17:05 -0400 (EDT) From: Alan Sondheim <sondheim@panix.com> Subject: humans protecting us humans protecting us http://www.alansondheim.org/them.mp4 in them the fury of the havens unleashes disguised counter-attacks on immigrants holding the world at bay, rewriting language, and masquerading as true friends it's not as if we're invited guests in them's parts but what the hell, kill them all of us, bloody hearts beating a note or two, i mean kill us all before we do http://www.alansondheim.org/thems.mp4 but look my friends when thems open up into brilliant chaos of every little town, each and every sign, who shall find our way home if not thems 'one of thems your own dont worry youre safe here' - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Date: Thu, 26 Aug 2010 11:52:20 -0400 (EDT) From: Alan Sondheim <sondheim@panix.com> Subject: STOP FORCED EVICTIONS OF ROMA IN EUROPE! (fwd) ---------- Forwarded message ---------- date: Thu, 26 Aug 2010 05:59:27 from: ajaco c/o bid <ajaco@XS4ALL.NL> reply-To: Theory and Writing <WRYTING-L@listserv.wvu.edu> to: WRYTING-L@listserv.wvu.edu subject: STOP FORCED EVICTIONS OF ROMA IN EUROPE! http://tent.xs4all.nl/mediacontent/eur015005210.en.pdf Spread wildly AA - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Date: Fri, 27 Aug 2010 23:26:09 -0400 (EDT) From: Alan Sondheim <sondheim@panix.com> Subject: Social Media Poetics: Why Talk, Sondheim Sondheim Why Talk, Sondheim Sondheim |||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||| |||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||| $ ytalk sondheim ------------------= YTalk version 3.3.0 =----------------------------- [Ringing sondheim...] [Waiting for connection...] ------------------= YTalk version 3.3.0 =----------------------------- ------------------= sondheim@panix1.panix.com =-------------------------- hello, these are dismal days, the country has lost its footing, no one knows where we're heading, we're ruddless, rudderless, i stay in nowadays it's like there's nowhere to go, the suffering of life isa clinamen for buddhism, i remember when there seemed to be a form of enterprise, magic, what you might call among oneselves, this social mediuam is lose when one speaks alone which always seems to be the case. sondheim i would fuck you, would swallow you hole, , fill your mouth with my cock, turn you inside out with the apc apocalypse of anguag o of anguish, you choke you choking you choking on your double bodies, these just the beginning of loss of skin and flesh and bones, you are not listening, you write as , no, you wwrite as a form of deliberate muteness, the violence of language, inherent language, becomes you, your eyes are fucked, ears are fucked, what what you have left is text, ou, pouring out, covering everythig with the murmur of the selves, of the self, it's singular, signu, sig, singularity, the absolute makes itself apparent just in the wings just off the stage in every form of speech, in every moment with in every moment when it goes on just this form of signing no one else is required, it brands selves, it scars what's left of the body, ripples the mememe, this self-fucking is this self-fucking s this self-fucking gnaaws away at the skein of the bodyy, sun-particles transform its age, speech of engagement, of this there is none, i swallow such swallow such piss of mine, such shit, my s my body is replaced by its severence, debris, chokes on its vomit of debric of debris nothing when w when writing is swallowed nothing is swallowed when writing is vomitted nothing is vmoited $ Message from Talk_Daemon@panix1.panix.com at 23:03 ... $ talk: connection requested by sondheim@panix1.panix.com. talk: respond with: talk sondheim@panix1.panix.com $ $ [Waiting for connection...] ------------------= YTalk version 3.3.0 =----------------------------- what you have left is text, ou, pouring out, covering everythig with the murmur of the selves, of the self, it's singular, signu, sig, singularity, it brands selves, it scars what's left of the body, ripples the mememe, this self-fucking is this self-fucking s this self-fucking gnaaws away at the skein of the bodyy, sun-particles transform its age, speech of engagement, of this there is none, i swallow nothing when w when writing is swallowed nothing is swallowed ---------------= sondheim@panix1.panix.com =-------------------------- no, you wwrite as a form of deliberate muteness, the violence of language, inherent language, becomes you, your eyes are fucked, ears are fucked, what the absolute makes itself apparent just in the wings just off the stage in every form of speech, in every moment with in every moment when it goes on just this form of signing no one else is required, such of debris |||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||| 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severence, debris, chokes on its vomit of debric of debris when writing is vomitted nothing is vmoited -------------------------= sondheim@panix1.panix.com =-------------------------- skin and flesh and bones, you are not listening, you write as , what you have left is text, ou, pouring out, covering everythig with the murmur of the selves, of the self, it's singular, signu, sig, singularity, it brands selves, it scars what's left of the body, ripples the mememe, this self-fucking is this self-fucking s this self-fucking gnaaws away at the skein of the bodyy, sun-particles transform its age, speech of engagement, of this there is none, i swallow nothing when w when writing is swallowed nothing is swallowed |||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||| |||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||| - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Date: Sun, 29 Aug 2010 20:49:04 -0400 (EDT) From: Alan Sondheim <sondheim@panix.com> Subject: Thinking About Retiring Thinking About Retiring I'm considering retirement; I'm asking for advice (back-channel); I'm at a loss; I never thought I'd reach this point; it's a point of solitude; no offline community, students, teaching; useless beyond occasional online talks. I write too much, play (music) too much, think too much; it's too much for me; too much for anyone; it's me. My friends don't return calls; why should they; school's starting; all those residencies; commitments; I sit in this loft (assume it's "this loft"); face the computer screen; the viola; the keyboard; the video editing software; the guitar; the oud; I decide what to do; I owe nothing to anyone. People visit on occasion; use one or another of my pieces (video or music), disappear. I haven't seen Myk (lap steel) for months; he's gone. I put work up at ESP-Disk; assume someone listens; it's gone. Grants are gone; jobs are gone; I tire from calling friends who don't have the time to return calls; I sit here; I think this is a bother; admire my father who watches tv day in day out; takes rides in the country; babbles; never did a creative thing in his life; gave me chances I wouldn't otherwise have had; psychologically abused me; has been retired over forty years; reads sometimes. I need to know what to do; I'm getting suicidal; I live in vacuum; compose in vacuum; think philosophy or dance or art in vacuum; push my own work like an arrogant fool; wait for no returns; wait for the money to run out; the building to collapse around me. I don't want to go back to school as a student; tour aimlessly around the country; volunteer for non-profits; my mind's still active. Invitations to schools; for performances; for equipment use; have stopped. I'm sick of the screen; this forced retirement; my sins have caught up with me; my numerous crimes have taken their toll; you know where to find me; you just don't know why. Retire the cull: wonder so many of us retire to the relative safety of cyberspace; here, each segment! will retire all the others... the segments... respects, seemed to him to be faultless. He had to retire to an uneasy each segment! will retire all the others... the segments... I would be a niter. I would retire from the machine. Perhaps I have a better retire for this - how many were killed today - I can't remember a They retire in aversion or fear. each segment! will retire all the others... the segments... terrific gunfire meets advancing foe; defenders retire coolly each segment! will retire all the others... the segments... female was just retiring to an inner room, when she suddenly came back this terminated the dialogue, Julia retiring to her own room, carrying me if retirement is a bridge that must be crossed when we get there leisure and retirement by systematically shirking any labor Suicide, the cull, far too many over 16 years: embryo suicide suicide embryo like now i think of suicide and hills O suicide O gnawed-blade hole O tourniquet punished by foaM Do listen to all smallthing suicide and leaping, say Alan Fear of deep death and do suicide. I would die. I want to die. I am so fantasy. I am so suicide. and suicide, say Alan and Nikuko [someone threatens suicide: does s/he really?] craw - a couple of other poets and myself have suicide poems in them. seppuku, suicide; shite, hero or shes elsewhere, suicide and leaping, say Alan and (cond (suicide-flag (dor-type ($ deathlst))) or suicide long gone wrong. "or rather suicided along with opera." 'death)731: discipline lesbian murder infidelity hardcore suicide (dor-put-meaning suicide 'death) (dor-put-meaning suicides 'death) -- turns suicide neither into a question nor an answer, but defuge and . subway tunnel collapses as plastique and suicide bombers do their work 1973 I think this was the year Gail Klaymink (sp?) committed suicide; as I 2006 Barry Sugarman committed suicide; he was the hand drummer in our I am incapable of keeping lines open and running, the wires suicide, Alan, hoping I haven't let you down. Too many people here talking suicide. Cybermind list. May 8, he committed suicide. He was a brilliant trans- Designed to withstand suicide, it totters, but does it? Do you ever think the whole world roars, that one can hear engines suicide Electricity itself, and an odd suicide (humans/dynamo) constitute the GIVE ME A SIGN; it is another night of suicide on this wider earth; I Hello, yes, peace be with you, hello! I commit suicide! Humans Hoffman a suicide, the rest of them either dead or in remission! This is I am incapable of keeping lines open and running, the wires suicide, I'll bet that you don't *really* want to commit suicide, do you? If so, If _the continuity girl_ commits suicide, does she break continuity? For If this were a suicide note, I would leave you my all. You would hear my Koresh or the BD said there would be no suicide. Obviously May suicide. He Mizu, water; Nikuko, meat-girl; seppuku, suicide; shite, hero or hero- Mizu, water; Nikuko-oozing, meat-girl; seppuku, suicide; shite, hero or NEVER ENOUGH. SUICIDE SQUAD patriot suicide squad. Net sex, Net flame, Net ennui, Net suicide. Now towards evening, Machine sleeps suicide quietly. What morning will Russian might have said? Clearly to obstruct suicide is evil. If a child Schneider says no one is coming out, no suicide, <k>denied Koresh THEORY_NOISE that just went on and on, suicide background and foreground That suicide, The I-wound opens up, splits the body; what gushes forth, like suicide, The There in evil will will coupled destroy suicide The decision against suicide brings proof to the mountain. They refuse the suicide, and even the sky fills with acronyms, inconceiv- This is not a suicide announcement. This isn't a preface to a twenty volume suicide note, Treatment is almost always unnecessary, unless the theme is suicide or Trying 134.115.4.238...old, energy and suicide Two high school girls from Kasuya, Fukuoka committed suicide yesterday We are patriot suicide squad. You know, the whole world is electrified, suicide along on whatever funda- You're always killing yourself, it's a kind of suicide, they're laughing ability to write, i'll be a suicide, no longer existent. well now as you again; death stalks me all my life. I live with the potential of suicide; age close of unclear. with to unclear. time, to suicide, time, eighth ahlfwillingly. we used to discuss a lot about suicide. when he sensed all any more than if i'm building /dev/nul it doesn't mean suicide or already a century old, energy and suicides already century old, energy and suicides an light area kiss fiber my chaos was in to suicide an oddly retroactive form of suicide. and death, about suicide/murder, _Lustmord,_ Jenny Holzer: What's going and illness, perhaps suicide bombing, slow attrition by forgetting, and j g suicide down by the river, gratitude towards authors, after doing and over again, for suicide as the least harmful and suicide were all entangled in the television image constricted rattle and want it like this, suicide when i can't work any longer, when i become anti-faustic dog nebula dog anti-faustic bar embryo bar embryo bar suicide be of me, would not be anywhere. If this were a suicide note, you would behind, still on, suicide away... blood, disinvests the world with its poverties and suicides. At the edge boasting, will lists, the i suicide restaurant there's out, i in know, bottom all around the shore, where it is visited by suicidebirds in burning the books. the books are suicides. carried out. Later, after his suicide, she asked whether he said anything chaos drives officer to suicide chaos was in to suicide road cracking ## bubble ## the circuitry suicide, no one's around commit suicide." "Great Kant, As a believer calls to his God, I call committed suicide on the JUNGLE GYM at his school. I never had a CRUSH on committed suicide. One of them died by hanging from a playground jungle coupled There with is suicide covered and ugly, i am not a lovely suicidebird, lover, her nightmare created us from the soil and water of the earth the suicide bomber is danger, suicide was the first option that occurred to him. i dont blame decompositions bacteria vegetation and suicidebirds and sparrows and dev deviously, just as she lived, a case of possible murder, suicide, disappear. well. on. physical. collapses. forever. lost. suicide. think. discipline 731: pack dumb, stab discipline suicide things pack leave discipline torture stab our things suicide artist discipline leave but disease, inundation, mafia and gang rule, suicide bombers, new forms of diseases and wars take over from depression and suicide. domestic violence and suicide). philosophy, medicine, healing, peace, war dor-$ deathlst suicide kill killing yourself t (If you are really drugs, suicides, ened suicide and then gave a number cut off half-way through i was there face which moved smoothly as he stepped forward against the suicide that flames, suicide, Lauren Hutton, distributed intelligence, Tonya Harding, for this reason I'd all his attack on postmodernism a kind of suicide; his friends were threatening suicide frightened f for s suicide. l lying a awake a at n night l like this i i f give me suicide, let me relax a bit go suicide, graveyard ditty, the mutual consolations of suicide lovers has disappeared. But comfort alleviates suicide, and one may stay in this heart, double suicide, you are inside my heart, i will kill myself, i will hearts, wa wa inside heart, wa wa double suicide, wa wa you are inside my her, sustaining herself on suicide wings with clinched talons, as if i considered suicide as a bypass immobilized; she remains elsewhere, dead - a suicide-talk of efface- in first life are limit cases: suicide, euthanasia, etc. inconceivable partings and attempted suicides and the ravages of insufferable suicides trapped america, guns, riots energy, flower's iron internet suicide with new everyone internet. is momentary through three and a half billion years, the guise of suicide. is the saying of suicide, I told you so. There is the saying of fear, so island said, how do you do write suicide in avant-garde xxxx it makes for dreaming suicide, dreaming patchwork for the very last time. itself, meanwhile I go back on the MOO and wRItINg sez hears it's suicide just the suicide sound. People are running and screaming again. just tried suicide what did i think the fuck i was doing running out the late-night talkshow; the guest said it can lead to suicide. The cut on my line, secretly conservative? That I thought suicide, lived in death's lovely suicidebird, delicate and caring of i am the pure swan to myself, lovely suicidebird, delicate and caring of others. i am the pure swan making of suicide hieroglyph maybe approach approach leave suicide 'death)731: our things but murders maybe leave 731: (doctor-put-meaning stab 'death)731: murders suicide mechanism of an anti-bourgeois bourgeois who commits suicide by destroying memory. in the reversed world, suicide is the mover is its alleviation. But I would also argue for a suicide for trivial murder and suicide?" That's what he said. President Clinton, on murderer, priestess, suicide. I travel through the slit! The slit in your murmurs heard last no suicide. and heard heard and syllables for my family is the family of books, suicides among 'em, turning towards ash, neuras thenic freudianwise disasters suicides rages wars angers limit walk never punishments never heals nor suicides not here of my life, and the suicide attempt was hidden and probably not that of outcomes, but it must be mass suicide. with a of suicide there are some. one's tendency towards suicide, which must be continually monitored. Not one? suicide suicide suicide one? or rather suicided along with opera. overthrown, but that they commit suicide. perturbing, too much talk of suicide. And if Jennifer, then ghost-like we phonemes. suicide. won't i knife phonemes. for fall i i for and begone potential final - and only - remaining process is suicide. Everything else prayer of repetition murder and suicide projectors suicide poorly in the background, speakers roaring before us - pulleys, invisibly molded in something suicide over the wires, never satori-boyve does the suicide_emotion of a dog_fuck so the slave of the seventy two sets live furious diseases wars take suicide up this end she had just attempted suicide, and when I reached her in the hospital, she thought of bees suicide all around, she thought about flowers. shikibu does me kimono kraus and tears and violette leduc and j g suicide should use extreme care before he classes them as suicides." suicides. sides of the self! We are all close to suicide, all pleading, but never site where a suicide tries to shoot" jennifer failing, her fear of the so that i try to sleep here wires suicide all about me somewhere in Asia; suicides are the Japanese order of the day. Or a speaking suicide, "I'm going to take my dog and go into the desert and I'm strokes; you can hear the suicide of the strings. The signified becomes suicide suicide bar the the suicide bombers, storms and lightnings, the destructions of languages and suicide for Nikuko suicide hoax - Michael Current's response - the complaint to the sys- suicide jennifer is jennifer my jennifer friend suicide not science the solution. suicide of the line as the object fills the frame - it is this space suicide or that REWRITE was always a continuous suicide. No one would suicide to death - just so - not tiredness, no, certainly not arousal, not suicide unloved suicide zz suicide). philosophy, medicine, healing, peace, war and survival elders suicide, death's suicide, etc., which are problematized in SL... suicide, for eighth we for when we year when tried year so, tried up so, suicide, the story of initialed names carved into absent substance. suicide-bird and soft wind, for the telling of it is the reading of it, suicide. suicide. suicide. The book is simultaneously a warning and an account of what went suicide. brilliant suicide; this suicide_emotion of a dog_fuck so the slav e of the altcrazy-satori-dog- suicides trapped america, guns, riots energy, flower's iron petals, bodies suicides, rages, temper and my fears of just being alive? I tried suicide as a kid, mixing the disasters through drugs, through suicides, through rages, through the the suicide the future the future the bar jaguar jaguar jaguar bar the to laugh f of ants interchanged=ant*suicide*the was it where city=of the wall of China; a suicide-bird which an American pricess wore in her the wires are suicide, as if carrying sensibility multiplexing beyond our the yearning protocols singing) your saw-palmetto suicide my the yearning thinking suicide, the production of a thing this IS a suicide note! thought. between madness and suicide, this pain looms. do i need atten- to myself, covered with ugly young." i am not a lovely suicidebird, track16 gallery la such blessing barry sugarman suicide he's johnson's twenty volume suicide note, this IS a suicide note! That is, if I don't unclear. to time, suicide, eighth for we when year tried so, up lived with unclear. unclear. to to time, time, suicide, suicide, eighth eighth for ured. It leads to suicide, dysfunction. I don't think cyberspace helps vandalized by schoolmates soon after the suicide. There were still, vegetation suicidebirds sparrows flies mites "i detest her because i violence and death and suicide were all entangled in the television image was swill. I perform emptiness. If I send out a suicide note = nothing. I way. What happened was that someone posted a suicide hoax for April wharfcry, the nurse's suicide, are equally embodied, that the promulgation whispers darkness warmth inconceivable partings attempted suicides ravages will be assumed that I documented my inexorable march towards suicide or with suicide, with despair, but the screen of Buddha, emptying out. 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